Going Away

Honestly, I don't like being here. And I don't like being there too. It’s all just too much for me and somehow both of these places show my weak points, and I got hurt and sad by that. So, I was thinking, if I could, I would like to go to someplace where I can begin all over again without knowing anyone from my past. Should I do that? Yes, you'll see when I do that. I’ll go away and you'll never see me again, within a short period of time. I’m serious. Its not that I'll forget my past, but gaining new experiences and meeting new people will be a good thing for me since I'm no more worthy here and there. In fact, no one trusted me, right, so I should go. I should go to..to where? I have no idea. To the west perhaps? Perhaps.. Once I get the money, I’ll flyyyy awayyyy lalalaaa can’t wait. Really, I can’t wait for that. And I’ll come back with more dignity and beauty so that no one will argue with me ever again. HAHA.

p/s: my lips won’t stop cursing. I'm pissing off. fuckfuckvhgjkdfbshvshbgkjfd!

frust tahap gaban

hi.

mungkin ramai dah tau keputusan exam UiTM dah keluar minggu lepas. aku pun dah lama tau result exam aku (sejak minggu lepas la jugak) and aku frust tahap gaban dengan result aku ni.haihh

last semester aku frust sebab dapat result paling rendah aku pernah dapat sepanjang aku jadi student uitm ni iaitu 3.25 (result sem lepas). yang sem ni pulak lain macam frustnya. nak tau sebab ape?sebab aku tak mencecah target yang aku nak. mungkin aku terlebih confident pun ada sikit la, tu yang target result pun nak gempak-gempak. last-last aku keciwa jugak. 

satu lagi, result aku kali ni lebih kurang sama dengan result aku masa diploma, semua nak sipi-sipi je lagi, mesti tak kena target. geram betoiii. orang lain ramai je yang boleh buat gempak-gempak, apsal aku tak boleh eh?ish tak bersyukur la yasmin ni, tapi nak wat camne, kite jeles tengok kejayaan orang lain dan kite frust kenapa kite tak boleh buat macam diorang. salah ke kite jeles?? 

hah, satu lagi, masuk sem depan, aku dah kene duduk rumah sewa pulak, macam first sem dulu, dan tengokla hasilnya dapat 3.25, result paling rendah. macam mane ni.duduk rumah sewa lagi  la aku banyak mainnnn. dan makannnn. tehehehee

ok ini jela craps yang aku nak merepek kali ni. orait bye.

eh, aku tak bagitau lagi la result aku berapa. aku dapat 3.42. frust tak frust?aku target dekan! :(

ok bye.